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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Well..think i'm sort of crazy today...when i reach sch..it was alrdy 7.20..10 more mins for national anthem...but somehow..i was sitting down on my place..mind was blank... but suddenly...felt so stressed up...n kind of depressed..thot i was having sudden mental breakdown for the first time...n thinking of onli death.. after tt..i cried...trying hard not to let any1 c mi..coz..it's easy for mi to control tears when i'm outside...but today..it's different.. the feeling tt came across mi was...sooo pressurising n stressed..it still can b controlled b4 the anthem...but after the anthem..i cried again...my bag was on my table n i'm lying on my bag..so..it's gd tt no 1 saw...tis time..my tears keep falling non stop..n i realli dunno how to stop ler..i juz feel like crying my hearts out...the first period is mother tongue...somehow..it's gd tt we haf to go to AVA rm to watch culture vcd...n it's pitch dark in there and there's 3 classes....but b4 going..gh sort of..find mi weird..n ask if i'm alrite..i didn tell wad happen..coz.. it's like..doesn matter anymore?? well.. but after chinese..it's poa..n i've stopped long time ago..still, feeling depressed...until physics period...i didn concentrate studying...i was drawing lots of stupid things in a paper..n gh draw too..and as time passes...felt better...but still was kinda sad inside..the whole day..was kinda dull for mi...and after pratical lessons..it was alrdy 4pm..but i stayed n help wif the class decor..hope meena,syu n priya are not angry wid mi for not following them hm..at about 5.45 or so...i rushed hm...coz..no 1 will b picking my bro up frm child care...n the dinner..haf to b collected frm my mom's fren..n i haf to do all tis? rush here n there? die halfway? no1 noes....muahahahahaha

10:29 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

Whew...reached hm at 7pm today..after achieviers at 4pm...mi, jac, geok hong, jeff,wai hoe and sailesh stayed back for the decor.. den tt stupid osman...eat rong medicine...come in scold scold scold...get paid by sch for locking doors onli...not as if we wont lock? come in kpkb...arghhh..den we all SCRAM.. LoLx...wai hoe slam the door behind mi sial...den osman ask y he not happi wid him izzit? LoLx...funni...but we juz walked off...den i pei geok hong take 800 n i got down at northpoint to buy some things..Shun bian buy old chang kee for my siblings...but by the time they reach hm...it's alreadi cold...after tt...watch tv till 8pm... den at 930..i began to rush my F&N coursework A..Today suppose to b deadline...but not finish.. hehe..going to slp ler...nitez~ *mUaCkZ*

11:45 PM

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Woke up at 12pm...coz went for midnite show last nite...end up reaching hm at 2am+.. after i woke up...went for breakfast wid mom n lil sis..the Nasi lemak is soooo DeLIcIOus!!! *yUm*yUm* =P~ it's kinda boring now...nothing to do... F&N haven do oso...gonna die... juz din haf any mood to do anything.. coz.. SUNDAY is my SLACKING day!!! mayb i'll get some nap? haiz... it's like...no1 in my msn list is ard...35 ppl online...but none r toking....hahaha.. tt's all i guess...?

3:54 PM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

LoLx...it's sat ya noe? n of coz..i woke up late...at abt 1130? haha...anyway...meet meena and priya for lunch at 2pm..but coz of my bro...threatening to play cs after eating...i asked Kino along.. so he can accompany my bro play cs later...when we met meena and priya..meena was trying some skirts..it was soo nice...n in the end..she bought 1 white 1...after tt..we went long john for lunch...after eating..it was abt 3.30? den we went to the bus stop to wait for Kino...after tt...we took a bus to yishun safra..
After my bro book the computer...mi n kino sent meena to tuition at 400+...while my bro stayed at the safra wif all his frens there...on the way back to safra..we saw hanisah and aminah...after tt saw devi...juz hope they wont anyhow think...hehe
when they r playing..i was playing the arcade games by myself n walk ard...until the last 20 mins or so..i watched them play...i still dont noe wad so fun abt tt lar...find the enemy n kill? haha..anyways...after playing...it was alrdy 6.25..den we went to 7 eleven n bought some things...and went to walk ard...ended up in yishun park..we spent the next few hrs playing in the playgrd at yishun park..n watch my bro being a clown while playing...haha..after tt...we walk back to get my bro's bike under my blk..n he went cycling for a while..after tt...we went to the playgrd near my hse n sit..my bro, clowning himself again..hahaha..funny ler he...n we went hm at 10pm..
my mom had promised to bring us for midnite show later...hope she keeps her promise =P

10:40 PM

Friday, July 23, 2004

Haiz... feeling so sad...Juz cried again last nite...dont noe y...m i going to lose a fren? LoLx..hope not... coz juz knew a few days onli.. LoLx =X it's friday u noe? n i love fridays.. coz..tml no sch!!! u c...every1 is having tuition...but i'm not...feeling kind of.... gonna fail my Os feeling? LoLx! well...again...forgot wad happen today...my memory failing? tt's serious..Waz happening???????? well... first 2 period is F&N...gd thing there's not much screeching frm her...hehe..den...got back my physics RE-test.. BUT I STILL FAIL!!! but hor...the recent test i gt 21/25...LoLx!! Haiz.. he said sth to priya which i will remind myself again n again frm now on...LoLx...not bad not bad...LoLx! after tt... he walked out so fast.. scared me huh? LoLx!! Anyway..after tt rushed back to class to help abit of decoration...coz i'm the noticeboard rep.. But feeling so bad lar...didn stay back to help them much...i juz help a lil n left...hope they wont mind..Hereby 10s to geok hong, jac, jeff, Jiayi, sailesh, tingzhen.. and hu ar? anyway..10s to u all for staying back n help... n i'm soo SoRrI!!! Haiz..after leaving the class..i went to D&T block to find priya,meena n syu.. after mi n meena n priya walked to northpoint to buy the colour ink for my printer.. n den went to haf out lunch cum dinner... after tt walk to interchange n take bus loh... Anyway...we had a conference at 8+ to 9+ kinda fun... n we hung up after tt...and den... find a tutor!!! ANG JIAN YUAN!! my tutor... hope he doesn faint after teaching mi... but i think tuition can onli start nxt wk? LoLx.. If my results bad..i'll haf him beheaded!! muahahahaha!!*gRiNs* It's gonna b a boring day tml.. i'm not going out i guess..no1 asked mi..muahahah..i wan shopping!!*no moni* haiz...sian sian sian...Oh Ya!!! MoM promised to bring us to the movies tml midnite!! YeA!! okie..write till here lerz..*dePrEsSiOn*

9:37 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

SooOO PISSED!!! juz reach homee...DAMN DUALNZ!!! was suppose to get $10 frm my dad for my aunt's maid to top up her ezlink..she had bought food n had no moni left... BUT TT DAMN FATHER THROW THE MONI ON MI N WAN MI TO PICK UP FRM THE FLOOR!! WTF IS TIS? WAN SHOW ATTITUDE NOT LIDDAT 1...I'LL STILL HATE HIM!! KNN!!!! HE THINKS BY PAMPERING MY BRO DEN MY BRO WILL LISTEN TO HIM...BUT TOO BAD...ALL OF US HATE HIM!!! EVERYTHING DOWAN PAY..HE WILL PAY NTH IN TIS HSEHOLD INCLUDING ALL OTHER BILLS ..EVEN MY NET BILL!! I PAID IT MYSELF!!! HE WAN TO USE WAD I PAY N DUN SHOW RESPECT???WANS US TO RESPECT HIM N HE DONT EVEN WAN TO RESPECT US FIRST!!!I JUZ SHOUTED AT HIM N WALK OFF...... EAT SHIT LAR!! WAIT TILL I GOT MONI!! I'LL THROW IT BACK AT HIM!!NOOOOO!!!! I THINK I CANT B BOTHERED TO THROW AT HIM..IT'S TOO WASTE TO THROW HIM MY MONI!!I RATHER USE IT FOR MY NET BILLS N OTHER STUFF!!! IDIOT!!! FUK LAR...HU WANS A DAD LIDDAT???I WISH TO LIVE FAR FAR AWAY FRM HIM LAR!!! EARN MONI BUY CIGAR? STUPID!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!

5:26 PM

Saturday, July 17, 2004

hmmz...woke up at 12++pm today...slpt at 11 last nite..but din slp well..first...aircon damn cold as it was raining heavily..2nd.. i'm having a splitting headache suddenly..so..i juz turn n toss in my bed n force myself to slp...too lazy to higher the temperature lar..den..when i woke up..headache is still there..my sis made half-boil egg for mi as breakfast...n i ate my mom's porridge..until 3+ or so..i was chattin wid guice..and then...both of us r gettin sian...so we agreed to meet up at orchard for a walk..she's so cute and chatty..so nice chattin wid her...n i was so happy...finally..there's some1 hu can come out..walking n chattin wid a boring person..LoLx..she's realli cute lar..first..we went to look for her shoes..and den she treat mi to a choco fudge n orange juice..tt's nice of her..n i shall treat her the nxt time rd(mind is set)!!!LoLx..after tt...we went to search a gift for her fren..it's so nice to walk lar...i juz love to walk alot(not run!!)..hehe..Well..i feel so bad lar..whenever she asked mi where i wanna go..i always say dunno/anything...lol...guess tt haf make her feel bored liao...n i nv tok much...tt surely haf made her more bored...hehe =X after tt..at ard 8+ or close to 9..she sent mi to somerset mrt station b4 meeting lin..HeHe..for the third time i say... She's realli cute!!! the way she toks nv make mi feel bored..Wish she can go out gai gai wid mi again~ hehe~ =P

9:43 PM

Thursday, July 15, 2004

HaHa...Today so sotong sial...tis morning my alarm went off at 5.30am..so i woke up..n thought i'll slp a while longer..after tt, so i press "stop" and i thot i pressed "snooze" den...my grandmother..came to wake us up..She live on the 11th floor of my block..n she was doing her morning exercise downstairs.. n saw our lights were not on..so she came up to check..n so..i woke up at 6.30.. It was realli damn late lar..den i rushed everything..n den waited for my lil sis to prepare herself.. at 7.10 or so..we went to wait for taxi..at onli ard 7.20 den finally gt a taxi lar.. gd thing i'm not late...coz..i'm still owing 1 detention.. hahaha..i was sooo tired..n wasn realli concentrating today.. we played mini tennis during PE lesson and..the ball was sort of...flying everywhere? hahaa..anyway... boring day lar.. after achieviers programme, mi, priya n meena went to Long john silver to eat out lunch cum dinner.. den tok tok awhile n went hm.. den..another sotong thing happen..i miss my stop..i was suppose to alight at the bus stop behind my blk..and i was preparing to get down at the stop b4.. den..i somehow was dreamin/thinking of sth lar... n i missed my stop..so..i had to walk home frm the nxt stop lar.. Sooooo stupid of mi..keep thinking of the quest priya n meena asked mi continously during the journey...so funni lar, the way they asked..After i reached hm..i,meena n priya conference for awhile..and help meena change her blog... hahaha.. It's a sotong day for mi today.. =P

9:35 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Today woke up kinda early.. so sian..forgot wad i did today..onli noe chinese period is damn boring..and was copyin physics hw during chemistry lesson..muahahaha..today not bad lar..but as usual...so tired...hehe...happi tt i finally pass my chemistry.. all thanks to meena..hehe..but...i failed my POA!!!! all 10s to the poa expert aka the great...muahahahaha...*jk* write till here ler ba? coz..i seriously cant remember...i'm like in dreamland everyday..hehehe..will b helping priya to do her blog..n meena's blog...not bad..hehez!!

11:03 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

haiz...woke up kind late today..n gd thing i rushed things over..n i managed to get the earlier bus den usual..It's a miracle.. mr phua didn look for mi..mayb he's on mc today? mayb he's gonna look for mi tml? *sCaRed* muahahaah..haiz..Today.. first 3 periods english..writing a descriptive essay..guess hu i wrote? i wrote my imaginery fren...muahahaha...after tt...i had maths...and i was concentrating..after tt had Home econ lesson..mrs yiu demostrated experiments on cakes n pastries.. hmmz...almost a disaster? Well..kinda boring for the start of the wk..n i noe i'm beri beri tired..coz i slpt at almost 2am last nite...n dreamt of vampire chasing after mi? muahahaha tupid dreams..i hate nitemares..Lin's not toking to mi? or m i not toking? hahaha..i noe i wont haf any nitemares..if there's trust.. Wahahahahaah~~

11:15 PM

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Sian...woke up at 6+ am..n msg ah hong..den went baq to slp.. till priya called den wake up..after tt went to meet them..but kenna pangseh instead..den went arcade and buy clothes wid my sis..when reach hm..msg charlin..tupid idiot play games dowan reply..i swear i wont tok to him ever again..tok to him can die ar!!! HATE TODAY LAR!!!!

7:04 PM

Friday, July 09, 2004

Omg...i missed my detention today again...so blur lar..dunno wad happen oso..Mr phua will surely cum n look mi up for the 2nd time tis monday....*dEaD mEaT* well..dunno y i so slpy today lar...slpt during physics lesson..but the last 3 periods for maths...was concentrating on the lesson..coz..i scared i fail..whahaaha.. but still..it's boring lar...tt "half half" ar...LoLx..changing continously lar..fUnnY..muahhahaah..i sort of cant remember wad happen lar..but "half half" was so bad lar... always tease him for wad? (jokin!!)...muahahahaha...came hm n scanned foto for charlin..nicely taken ba? muahhahaa.. Lin's tokin to mi..*haPpI* but always sooo bz...it's kind of havin a short term memory..muhahaha...head can onli think sth now lar...cant remember wad i did today?

11:10 PM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Haiz..these few days nearly late for sch...still owing 1 detention.. as usual..cry..haha..disappointed lar...read her blog.. realli a big disappointment... beside.. lin's not toking to mi..? another great disappointment.. haiz..Miss sally's voice..(muahahaha..i not les..dun worri.. Sally ish Lin's guitar)..Lin realli play sally so well..summore...sally ish cool and pretty...anyway..juz love her voice lar..*wondeRs* haha..*miss Lin*

9:23 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

So shocked lar...they had an argument..a real big 1..nobody noes wad to do..haiz...anywayz...had my CL o lvl oral today..so nervous..and in the end..the teacher was yawning..n the other was shaking her head..always stammer...the 2 teachers look like monster sial...make up like dunno wad...nails polish till so many pattern...haiyo..thot i've seen ghost ard...Din noe how to ans a quest..n dont noe wad i'm toking....haiz..after tt...took a bus hm..Played a few rds of gunbound wid dom korkor..and it's xiong's b'day tml(8 July) gotta stay till 12am to b e first person...muahahah..sooo tiredz..lin din tok to mi much...soO sAd..*mIsS lIn*

11:33 PM

Monday, July 05, 2004

Today is youth day..boring day..no tv prgramme to watch..was slacking lar..meet ck for a movie of spiderman later..wid my bro.. dont noe if the movie is nice..anyways..i'll b back to write again ba...*Miss Lin*

1:34 PM

Sunday, July 04, 2004

HmMmz..Today went to buy my sch bag wid meena and priya's company..mi and meena meet at OCBC northpoint outside at 1pm? den walk ard to wait for priya..coz her tuition onli end at 1.30..den we took a train down to Place A..haha..dun feel like telling where lar..den after reaching tt place..we had a hard time serching for bags tt i like..after tt..we finally found1..n we told the person tt we'll cum baq later to buy..as we were so freaking hungry...we went to the food juntion to haf our lunch..after tt..each of us gt a dessert..*yUm*yUm* HONEYDEW SAGO!! MY FAV!!! anyway..after eating..we went back to the shop..n finally bought it...So happi..

After buying,We came back to yishun for a walk..i gt myself a bottle of ice lemon tea,coloured socks and a "bean bag" for hugging at nite...wahhaa...waste so much moni...but i like...=P

11:13 PM

Friday, July 02, 2004

Haiz...feeling so sad...Read devi's blog...she juz dun understand priya...thot she wans the grp to b baq when she spoke to mi juz now...but wad's happening? she juz wrote all kinds of things in her blog...haiz...Wad to do..?so sian today...suppose to go bugis wif py...but reach hm late n cant find him anywhere...Terrible lar...

6:59 PM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

LoLx..whole day headache sial..feeling so terrible...coz..i'm feeling hot n cold at da same time..So funny sial..Woke up at 3am...n thot it was 6am...so i went to bath...feeling so drowsy..den i woke my sis up...after both my sis bath finish...one of my sis came n scolded mi "Do you noe wad time it is?" n i asked her for the time...LoLx...so funni...woke up at 3am...n prepare for sch...siao bo? Feeling a sense of relief..i went back to slp...sO tiRed...n my head aching...the air con....blowing on mi...but i'm feeling both hot n cold..at 6.45 or so...priya called...n i ask for a panadol..n she brought it to sch for mi..Nearly late for sch sial...7.13am den get a taxi...coz i waited for my sis...after taking priya's pill...i went crazy...i keep tokin abt my dearest D D infront of them...wahahahaha..but i'm juz jking lar...he's too gd for mi..

5:16 PM