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KAIXIN ;


Wednesday, July 28, 2004



Well..think i'm sort of crazy today...when i reach sch..it was alrdy 7.20..10 more mins for national anthem...but somehow..i was sitting down on my place..mind was blank... but suddenly...felt so stressed up...n kind of depressed..thot i was having sudden mental breakdown for the first time...n thinking of onli death.. after tt..i cried...trying hard not to let any1 c mi..coz..it's easy for mi to control tears when i'm outside...but today..it's different.. the feeling tt came across mi was...sooo pressurising n stressed..it still can b controlled b4 the anthem...but after the anthem..i cried again...my bag was on my table n i'm lying on my bag..so..it's gd tt no 1 saw...tis time..my tears keep falling non stop..n i realli dunno how to stop ler..i juz feel like crying my hearts out...the first period is mother tongue...somehow..it's gd tt we haf to go to AVA rm to watch culture vcd...n it's pitch dark in there and there's 3 classes....but b4 going..gh sort of..find mi weird..n ask if i'm alrite..i didn tell wad happen..coz.. it's like..doesn matter anymore?? well.. but after chinese..it's poa..n i've stopped long time ago..still, feeling depressed...until physics period...i didn concentrate studying...i was drawing lots of stupid things in a paper..n gh draw too..and as time passes...felt better...but still was kinda sad inside..the whole day..was kinda dull for mi...and after pratical lessons..it was alrdy 4pm..but i stayed n help wif the class decor..hope meena,syu n priya are not angry wid mi for not following them hm..at about 5.45 or so...i rushed hm...coz..no 1 will b picking my bro up frm child care...n the dinner..haf to b collected frm my mom's fren..n i haf to do all tis? rush here n there? die halfway? no1 noes....muahahahahaha

10:29 PM